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[commotiocordis]

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bad person because I get fiercely, fiercely jealous occasionally. Mostly over friends. Idk. Jealous/depressed, I guess. It seems like crazy, stupid elementary school behavior, but if I think/find out that somebody doesn't like me as much as I like them, I sort of shut down. One of those "you're not your best friend's best friend" things. That situation seems to happen to me a lot. That's almost definitely my fault, though, because I get v. v. attached and devoted to my friends. The problem is that most of me says that that shouldn't be a bad thing, but the rest points out how often and how hard I end up getting hurt by it.

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[chaosity.livejournal.com]

FUCKING STORY OF MY LIFE. Like, you have no idea. It's amazing how much it can hurt, and how much it can cause you to hate yourself (amirite?). And it's only recently I was in a similar situation to this, so I can still feel it.

*hugshugshugsjksdhsja*

random: this is prolly one of the icons I use the most. For obvious love/"I'm here for you"/incestual reasons

[xakana.livejournal.com]

Yup, same here. Interestingly enough, I managed to attract a best friend who is just as jealous. Like when I was going out with my girlfriend, she hated her. She said, basically "It's not that I want to sleep with you, but I don't want another girl to do it either. You're mine." She likes hubby though and we joke that I have a husband and a wife (or that he has two wives). But any time I see her mention that she likes someone else, I get pouty and upset. Once upon a time, I considered her my best friend but she still considered this other girl her best friend, so I stopped speaking to her (without telling her, because I knew I was being stupid) because I was so angry and jealous. And when I did speak to her, I was snipey and bitchy.

And yeah, I hate finding out someone doesn't like me as much as I like them. Or worse, that the really DON'T like me :(