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Oh, so remember way back on my birthday how I decided I was going to keep track of all the fiction I read online, just to see how much I read?

Yeah, well it's been more than 6 months, and so I decided to figure out how much I've read here at the half-way mark. I managed to lose completely one week's record somehow, so that's missing, and I know that I don't record hardly anything that I don't read right here at this computer (especially if it's something that's been printed out and handed to me, because it's hard to go and find the fic again to copy and paste it into the record when you only remember some of the bits in the story and not the author or title or URL), but it's a nice looking number.

With all the stuff I mentioned and the missing week not even estimated in, the 6 month total came to. . .

*drumroll*

Well, fuck. I did it on the computer calculator, and then evidently I accidentally closed the window. So, erm, as I don't want to figure it all over again, it was well over 3 million words. 3033xxx, I just don't remember the last numbers. Close enough. I'll figure it again at some point.

Still.

Three million words. And this is just non-school, non-book (because I've also read a bazillion books and parts of books and such), online funnage.

It's interesting, because I can look at the number of words and go "Yeah, I had a history project due that week" or "Oh, that was the week I had the flu" because the numbers are drastically lower on some weeks.

I wanted to keep track of all the books I read, but the problem is that I don't finish all of them. I take a book I love and have read a bazillion times and just open it to a page and start reading somewhere in the middle. And for school and such, for example my dumb history class, though we've read doubtless a good portion of the book, we skipped around and I'm not sure how much we actually read.

I'm going to make that my goal, to actually finish the books I start.

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Umm, evidently there's some fine on my public library record for something called "Kingdom Keepers" because it's missing disk number 4. And it's $15. I've never heard of that. Pretty sure I've never checked it out. The library people have been fucking up my account lately. For example. I returned a bunch of stuff. A while ago. A few days ago, it was still on my record as checked out and accumulating fines. WTF? I go back today, and some of it's gone from the record, but the fines that accumulated after I gave it back but before they checked it in are still there. So, um, thanks guys. Because of this crap, my account's past the fine limit and I can't renew these books that I've got out, which are now, as a result, accumulating more fines.

Thanks, guys. Not even cool. What happened to the old public library? The one I walked down to each day and started helping them shelve books in preschool? The one where bureaucratic crap was trumped by reading every time? It's gone. I don't like it.

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So. Urm, it's bloody freezing in my house right now. My body doesn't regulate its temperature right for the first 20 or 30 minutes that I'm awake, so I'm always miserable in the mornings here. Nobody else seems to understand that I don't stay in bed for half an hour after I wake up because I'm lazy, but rather because if I get out of bed my teeth will start chattering something fierce and I'll be horridly cold.

See, it's been about 30 minutes now and I'm feeling warmer. Why we can't just have it warmer to begin with so I don't have this problem, I don't know.

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"Don't give me that look! This is not the time to . . . be bringing the children at the hospital the candies that we made them."

Yeah. Crossing Jordan 6.02 is very Lu/Jordan. (Though that quote was not, I just found it funny.) Yay, femslashyness. I need Lu/Jordan fics.

Speaking of, I also need good, long, epic Ivanova/Talia fics, which I've been really hard-pressed to find ever.

Hee, there's a shot on the CJ episode about 21 minutes in where it looks like Jordan's got somebody's lipstick smeared above her top lip.

Okay, so now I'm really angry about them killing off Lu. Because definitely, at the end of this episode there's a scene where Jordan starts yelling and being all emotional like in front of the judge and Lu's like *respects*. And I get why the crying was happening now, I think, even without seeing the next episode because they were on the way to actually being friends after this and they never got a chance. Sadness.

Oh, and if anybody happens to have a copy of the episode last season with the Jordan/Lu snoggage and/or last Sunday's (6.03) and wants to throw them my way, I'd be very appreciative. Because I know I had the former at some point, but no longer, and the NBC website for watching the episodes tends not to work for me.

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I feel bad about how I'm not liking the fact that JenMo and Jesse Spencer got engaged. Because I know that I'm mostly thinking about the characters and how I really dislike Cameron/Chase. But the thing is, my dislike for Cameron/Chase stems mostly from the fact that I don't like Jesse. He's always seemed to me to be very pretentious and self-righteous. Of course, that's only what's been presented in interviews, meaning not entirely accurate, necessarily. Still, though. Everybody on the House boards is like "Yay JenMo and Jesse!" (except they don't call her JenMo, because that was a me thing) and I'm like "err, if it makes them happy, I suppose. . . ."

But I am a horrid bitch when it comes to real-life relationships. I prefer fiction. I enjoy it when I see two people breaking up in the hallway. I like watching their reactions, to see how people respond to something that's stressful and sad for them; the ending of something that they've put work and effort into. That's just my analytical people watching coming out, I suppose, but I'm really cynical when it comes to love. Especially between young people. As in, I don't so much believe in it. I enjoy it in fiction, I'm all "Ooh, OTPsoulmatesyay!" but that's fiction. Love, as the feelings that most would define it as, is a trick that nature plays to get us to reproduce, a mingling of biological and evolutionary drive and chemical signals. I don't deny that the feelings exist, and that they're pleasurable (be they romantic or platonic love), but I sort of think they're hollow.

I think that there can be an emotional and intellectual connection, and that's what makes real love. But with these random teenagers at school and such, there's not that. I don't even think you have to have -- to turn it completely in a romantic direction -- the desire to shag each other silly at all. But that's what's considered love, particularly at the young adult stage, and that's why the relationships don't last. Ever wonder why you stay "together" with your best mate a lot longer than with your boy/girlfriend? It's because there's more than a physical attraction.

I dunno. Interpersonal relationships are tricky.

Hee, this went from JenMo/Jesse eww to ragging on teenage love and the reason marriages/relationships fail. Sort of. Yay, tangents.

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Hee, the Buffy episode that my brother is watching? "Bad Girls." He gets to the clubbing scene and I happen to look up and go "Oh, this is 'Bad Girls', isn't it?" And he's like "You haven't even been watching, how do you know?" And I'm all "I recognize this scene."

But then he starts talking about how Buffy usually doesn't dance like that (and demonstrates how she usually dances scarily well) and it like "It's weird. Now Faith comes along and she dances all funny. It's like she's gay."

Me: *covers mouth with hand to stifle sniggering and vehement agreement to his off-hand comment*

Oh, and I opened the window of the house_daily post with the JenMo/Jesse pictures and hadn't looked at it yet, waiting for it to load by typing this stuff. And so I go to find it, and the little bit of the headlineblurb on the toolbar/start bar thing was "The Happy Couple at the 'Start the New Y-" (you know, and then it cut off). And I open the page, and the picture that it was centered on (because for some reason it started me off about a fifth of the way down the page) was JenMo and some chick. And I laughed. But cried a little inside because it wasn't Lisa E.

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My skin has been all yellowish tinged of late. I just noticed it today, and I thought it was just the lighting in my bathroom, but I asked my mom in a different room where the lighting was different, and she said that it was. My eyes aren't, I'm pretty sure. Though I didn't look, because I didn't think of that. *goes to mirror* Umm, shit. They actually are, a little. Not good.

Hee, differential diagnosis for jaundice, stat. I've been taking vitamins lately and everything (but not enough to cause toxicity in anything, so that's not it) so I've got no idea. It's probably nothing, but I'm going to the doctor next monday anyway, so I'll have to ask her then. I'll probably end up having to go get all kinds of bloodwork done because if it hasn't gone away, I'd wager she'd want a hepatic workup. I doubt it's anything, though, because it's not very severe, barely a tinge.

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Hey, err, does anyone know of a program or something that will automatically save copies of all your lj entries? I've been trying to back them up onto non-internet files, but it's taking forever because past a certain point, you've got to go one entry at a time. I'd like to have a copy just for posterity's sake, in case we have a big LJ server blackout and lose everything or something. It's interesting to go way back and read stuff about how I was (who am I kidding, am) a miserable angsty teenager.