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I FOUND IT! trufaxyeah.

"It" meaning the fic I mentioned yesterday that I had been looking for. Finally. I tried googling everything I could think of, and finally I cut the search terms down to just "River/Talia" (since that was such a small bit of the fic, I hadn't even considered searching by that; instead I was doing things like Firefly Babylon 5 Crossover and Babylon 5 River/Jayne) and it was del.icio.us'd with that tag on somebody's account. One person. I refound this because one person bookmarked it. Thank you, whoever you are.

It's much more River/Jayne than I remembered. Firefly is one of those shows where I can see most pairings working, in some twisted way, when they're written into good fic. Though I don't tend to seek these other pairings out (I do Inara/Kaylee primarily, a few others on occasion), I tend to find them, somehow.

And then lose them. Thinking about the other oddish pairings I've read in Firefly lead me to thinking of this one (I've glorified it in my mind since I first read it because I haven't been able to find it either; I can't objectively tell how good it was) that was post-Serenity Inara/Zoe. I didn't expect to like that one when I opened it up. I'm not sure what lead me to open it up in the first place. Wash/Zoe is one of those pairings that you tend to just not touch. Hardly anyone does in FFverse, I've found, because they just work so well together. But it worked. Now that one's on my list of to-search-for fics.

I love this kind of fic. (Being the kind that this just-found fic belongs to.) So. . . abstract, almost, hugely confusing, with that ah-ha!gasp moment at the end when you realize what happened. I like it when I don't get all of it. I get most of it, the gist of it, but there are bits where I'm all "I know there's another meaning lying under this motif, but it's not clicking". And upon rereading, you grasp more of it, perhaps. And it's not so much that it doesn't make any sense at all, but it's more that you could put a bunch of different kinds of sense onto it.

Excellence. I spread out the reading of it over a good 2 hours, as I did other stuff (surfed around Netflix, mostly) and I can most definitively say that it was just as good as I remembered. (Good thing, too, because I put a good couple of hours into looking for it again.)

I was reading Endgame, by Samuel Beckett, today in theatre, and I kinda really wanted to write apocalypse fic. Of the SG-1 persuasion, actually. Just because that's what popped into my head after the House idea that made no sense and had a plausibility level of zero. And the SG-1 idea wasn't horrid, actually, though I'd never be able to pull it off as I still don't know the fandom that well (I haven't had time to go back to trying to watch the DVDs of late, I'm still in the middle of season 4) and can't really write things of that sort that would get across the deepness that I'd like.

So. Evidently Teryl Rothery is credited as being the ISN reporter in the newest, yet to be released item in the Babylon 5 saga. And she's credited pretty high up on the IMDB list, she's third after only Sheridan and Lochley. Cool. That's another show I'm behind in. I'm all crazy about the beginning, but once it gets into the war, it doesn't interest me as much. I'm still right where I was at the end of the summer, the first disk of season four.

Must bed. I couldn't fall asleep last night for the life of me even though I didn't take a nap or anything (and usually even if I do nap, it's not ever a problem) due to coughing specifically and I don't know why but I'm assuming stress generally, so hopefully tonight will be better.

"Don't give me that look! This is not the time to . . . be bringing the children at the hospital the candies that we made them."

Yeah. Crossing Jordan 6.02 is very Lu/Jordan. (Though that quote was not, I just found it funny.) Yay, femslashyness. I need Lu/Jordan fics.

Speaking of, I also need good, long, epic Ivanova/Talia fics, which I've been really hard-pressed to find ever.

Hee, there's a shot on the CJ episode about 21 minutes in where it looks like Jordan's got somebody's lipstick smeared above her top lip.

Okay, so now I'm really angry about them killing off Lu. Because definitely, at the end of this episode there's a scene where Jordan starts yelling and being all emotional like in front of the judge and Lu's like *respects*. And I get why the crying was happening now, I think, even without seeing the next episode because they were on the way to actually being friends after this and they never got a chance. Sadness.

Oh, and if anybody happens to have a copy of the episode last season with the Jordan/Lu snoggage and/or last Sunday's (6.03) and wants to throw them my way, I'd be very appreciative. Because I know I had the former at some point, but no longer, and the NBC website for watching the episodes tends not to work for me.

I really would love to go to the Burbank Xena con this year, but as expected, it would pretty much bankrupt me. That's the same with all these cons; I really wanted to go to one of the 40th anniversary Star Trek ones too, but they're all hugely expensive. They're so commercial. Isn't it supposed to be about meeting other fans? I get that there are booths to sell things and such, but can't the convention recoup their money from booth fees and keep the convention ticket prices down? Even charging for autographs and tickets to Lucy's concert and such, I get that (though autographs should be free, IMO), but the only way you can even walk in the door as far as I can see right now is the $279 ticket thing. That's crazy high.

The problem is that there's a convention company. That's where all the money is going. It needs to go back to people organizing them, or at least a smaller company that doesn't need to up their profit margin so much. I mean, they want volunteers (which I so am planning to do at some point at the miniconvention here, though it never has had anybody good since Chase Masterson and Andreas Katsulas in 1997. Edit: And Mira freaking Furlan in 2007. I'm so signing up.), so it's not like they even have to pay people to work at it.

It's not that I really had much of a chance of being able to go anyway; I'd have to take off probably 3 days of school (though I could call two of them a college visit and it wouldn't count for attendance days) and drive all the way down there myself, which there's no way I'd be comfortable doing seeing as how that's only a couple of months from now and as it stands I refuse to drive on streets where there are more than two lanes on each side, much less highways. Or fly, and then I could take off only two days, but that's an extra bunch of hundred dollars. And honestly, it wouldn't be fun (or safe) not knowing anybody. So I'd have to get one of my parents to take me, which means they'd be off work (though that'd fix the driving thing) and I'd have to pay for their ticket. So never going to happen. But minus the price, it might be worth it. I've never been to any convention before and I'd really like to, just to have that experience.

So. That's my no-sleep-yet-again-tonight story that doesn't really make any sense except to say that these conventions are just money-making opportunities for The Man and have lost sight of the purpose of it all. I actually slept for a long time (meaning like 3 hours) during the day today, but I didn't sleep well and woke up almost more tired than when I went to sleep. It's all rainy and windy which is stirring up the leaves that have started to decompose so the air is all moldy and my allergies are like grr, which is probably why my sleep wasn't productive. That's bad. So I don't have my blocking done for Seagull yet again today, but I'm just sort of going to make it up as I go along as the teacher isn't there to knock me down for not being all prepared.