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[commotiocordis]

I am far too tired to still have done none of my homework for the day.

I spent today running around, like I mentioned yesterday, to 70 bazillion places. More than I intended, actually, as some bitch cut me off and forced me onto the highway on the way to my dad's school, which meant I had to go two exits past nowhere in order to turn around due to construction. And I had to stop by and make up a test for medical terminology. Final was this evening, though, after being rescheduled from this morning (which I had forgotten about last night, and was why I missed the first two hours of school today--okay, first one. The second was just me being a horrible horrible person and not wanting to go yet--until I found out that it got changed due to it being in a weird time in the first place or the ice or something), which means it's over now. Ahh, ridiculously easy class where I got to read fanfiction whilst keeping one ear open as the teacher talked about things that I mostly already knew. I shall miss thee.

I think next semester I'm going to take physics over the internets (coming in on 4 or 5 Saturdays for labs and tests), but the one that's online is marked "consider not taking this online if you didn't get at least a C in algebra". As in, you can still take it, but do the regular class instead of the distance one. The "engineering physics" class is labeled calculus-level, which probably means that that's what I should take (minus the engineering part--I think it just denotes that it's higher level, but idk), but I think it's only offered during the day, so I can't. I'm a little wary about the first class, "college physics", though, because it specifically says all over that there are no make-up labs, and that essentially, if you miss one of the Saturdays, you're going to have a damn hard time passing the class. Plus, there's this Saturday medical program that I'm applying for that I have to look up the dates for to see if they conflict (and, like the physics, that thing says that you won't be accepted if you have to miss any of the dates), and that's minimum two mock trial meetings I'm going to have to miss. Edit: Or maybe not on the latter, as I forgot we just changed our meeting times to earlier in the morning. I'd have to skip out a tad early, but methinks it wouldn't be a problem.

Plus, the book is goddamned expensive. IH college in that regard.

Re: Mock Trial. I'm half witnessing again. I'm both happy and not with that. Happy because it's pretty fun when you get a good crosser on your back to, putting it delicately, kick the living snot out of them, but not because it was so damn hard for me last year to have to sit there on the witness bench as my team missed and flubbed objections that I knew the response to. I get. . . idk. I'm like the kid who doesn't like to share the ball because they're afraid the other kids will make them lose, and now that I've made that connection I feel horrible, but it's somehow different (and yet not) because it's an intellectual pursuit? I don't know. I'm a bad person, hell, I've poached objections from people before because I knew that they didn't know what they were doing (though semi-legitimately, because it was a rules-debate and I was both more or less captain and more affected by the decision than the person whose examination it was raised during) but I'm really good at mock trial and speaking extemporaneously and such, and though that doesn't mean anything and normally I'm content to sit and maybe slip a note to a fellow lawyer if there's something they're missing, but it hurts me when it's simply because they don't know the rules. LOL, control issues.

And I've been meaning to fix my Criminal Minds icon. I didn't realize that the border was left transparent and not white, and though it looks fine on my journal because of the white background, on others' it does not.

Plus, I need suggestions for Christmas gifts. Both for myself and for my friends (particularly Katie, my plans for which fell through and now must be started from scratch).

Plus and again. Die, neck zit. My birthcontrolisnotworking chesticle acne is being a whore, in that not only have I not been able to wear a single anything-but-tshirt top since summer, but now the t-shirts are barely cutting it, as the latest bastard is right at the hollow of my neck, where my collarbones meet. It's like an army that is slowly encroaching on the rest of my body, wtf.

And to conclude this lovely 20 minute extension of my several hour procrastination, alkdhgfiouqwjenadflkj KEYBOARD HATE. Start working better, sir. (Points to keyboardmash. Notice how there are no 's's in that? THIS IS MY DILEMMA.)

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[chaosity.livejournal.com]

I'm like the kid who doesn't like to share the ball because they're afraid the other kids will make them lose

LOL I GET LIKE THAT.

What were you planning to get Katie? Did she get it or tell you that her parents were getting it? That's happened to me before. It's really hard to stop people buying your present idea without giving it away, too, so once the idea is in their head... doom, basically.

DIE, CHESTICLE ACNE. I got a bit of that before starting birth control too. When I started it all actually took my advice and disappeared. I'm starting to see signs of it again now that summer's setting in, though. MUST GET BACK ON PILL.
It's funny you should mention a neck zit. *touches newly forming spot on neck and winces*. I don't get those often, but when I do they're fricking bastards. This one's like an inch below my jawline, so I feel like it's reallyreally obvious. I HATE.... SKIN.

[rainbowjumpsuit.livejournal.com]

I've had acne for way too long myself. Everyone told me I'd grow out of it. They lied.

Fuckheads.

[crashcart9.livejournal.com]

I hate that. I thought it'd be gone around maybe the end of middle school, you know? Especially because my dad had practically none as a teenager and my mom very little. At least I don't have the bad face-scarring kind. That'd be hard.

[chaosity.livejournal.com]

*jumps in* I HAVE AN ANSWER, FOR BOTH OF YOU.

check out this site (http://www.acne.org) and invest in some benzoyl peroxide. I started getting acne when I was 11 (INO.) and people told me I'd grow out of it, but early this year it was still there. Then, a couple of weeks using that stuff, and I'm CRYSTAL CLEAR. It causes a bit of irritation at first, but if you stick with it and follow that regimen relatively closely, I can guarantee you'll be clear. Unless you're allergic. :\
Don't stop too soon, though. I stopped after a couple of months and it slowly came back.

[rainbowjumpsuit.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the link BB. I would try it out if I had any money, but actually I think I got prescribed some kind of cream with that stuff in it when I was a teenager, and it didn't help me. I've always had it pretty bad, its maybe not as bad now as it was then, but it isn't good either. *sighs*

[chaosity.livejournal.com]

You should still give it a go sometime - when you can afford it, of course. It all depends on your skin - maybe you just needed to persist? Also, the slightest little thing can affect how well it works - even some ingredients in mosturisers.
Or maybe you could try the pill?
I've had acne for going on six years now, which might not be as long as you, but still long enough for me to really understand exactly how much torment it can be. Like, a shot to your self-esteem every time you look in the mirror, and ugh. I can safely say that having it is the reason there aren't all that many recent-sih pictures of me floating around the house.

[crashcart9.livejournal.com]

Did you do the whole regimen thing, or just the benzoyl peroxide? I used to have some Day and Night stuff (it was two bottles in one, half with some special day formula--either salicylic acid or bp and a bit of moisturizer and the other half for night with the other drying agent in it) that worked passably, but I never used it in the morning like I should because the stuff didn't absorb well and sort of left your face a bit tacky. So I used the entire night bottle at night, and then moved on to using the day bottle at night. My face was okay while using it, but it generally isn't ever bad, and it didn't do anything the few times that I tried using either of the gels on my chest/shoulders.

Oh, but the wonders of the bleaching effects of the peroxide. I've got a couple of shirts that I wear to bed on occasion (and elsewhere than bed on occasion, though not really anymore) that I managed to screw up by putting that stuff (I think mine was closer to 10%) on my chest and then letting the shirt get bleachy where it touched. And it didn't even show up until I washed the shirt, I think, oddly.

Do you put the bp on your whole face? I only ever used it for bit treatments, to dry up that big zit that you can feel starting and such. Perhaps I shall try that.

I'm frustrated, though, because the gorram birth control is supposed to be fixing this itself. It's almost the entire reason I went back on it and suffered through the nausea on the first medication and the obnoxiously long period caused by the switch to the second (WE'RE ON WEEK SEVEN, HERE, DUMB BODY. I'M STARTING TO ROOT THAT MY UTERUS ACTUALLY IS EATING MY OVARIES WHEN IT STARTS TO HURT LIKE IT), and there's been very little change. Negative change on my face, actually, as I'm zittier than usual.

[chaosity.livejournal.com]

I cleansed and applied the bp, but more often-than-not skipped the moisturising step. Partly because, this one time, I applied what was supposed to be a gentle moisturiser for sensitive skin after the bp and suffered the most excruciating burning until I leapt out of bed and re-washed my face. Twice. But also because my skin never dried out all that badly - I suspect because it's naturally oily, and the cleanser I used didn't affect that (which would have felt utterly gross without the bp to dry it, I tell you).
I'm trying to get back into the routine again now (too much laziness has resulted in a very undesirable decline) and I think I will actually moisturise this time. Only because I get a bit of redness and irritation when I first start using the bp, and I suspect moisturising will help that somewhat. Especially this intensive care moisturiser that I bought - it's actually designed for sunburnt/dry skin, plus I've tried it normally and it doesn't cause unwanted greasiness. BONUS.

What was it like on your chest/shoulders? I tried using it on my back once, and found it too itchy. Though that was actually unnecessary, as the rash-type spotty stuff I was getting on my back wasn't actually bacne, but something ELSE to do with the follicles. I forget what it's called, but it's... something to do with a build-up of keratin? idk.

LOL, I bleached my Egyptian cotton pillowcase without realising. Okay, so I'm fairly sure it's imitation Egyptian cotton as the set was, like, 20 bucks, BUT STILL.

10%?! That would kill my skin. I get a bad enough reaction out of the 5% face wash - ONE YOU RINSE OFF. I use a 2.5% gel normally.

Do you put the bp on your whole face?

Yup. When it was recommended to me years ago they said to only apply it to the actual pimples themselves, but I've found you get a much better result when you apply it to the whole face. It clears and reduces your pores and everything, leaving it all looking totally clear, rather than having zit-free skin that still looks blemishy, y'know?

I gave up on my birth control helping it. All I really care about is having my period back on track - IT'S BEEN FREAKING MONTHS NOW, AND ALL I'VE HAD IS A MINOR SHOWING OF OLD STUFF? Pardon the tmi.

[crashcart9.livejournal.com]

suffered the most excruciating burning until I leapt out of bed and re-washed my face

HATE. Especially because sometimes I get this random hypersensitivity autoimmune thing where if even my fingers touch my face in the wrong way, it'll get all burny and blotchy and red there. I had the whole saga once on the way to mini medical school where my face was peelingish dry, but it turned out it was peelingish ubersensitive, so when I put on some lotion (supposed to be safe for faces and everything) in the car and then made my mom idle the car in drop off bit near the medical building whilst I spat furiously into a napkin to try to wipe it off. Got home and was still all reddy and tried to put on some (pure) aloe vera to soothe the burn bits. Reacted to that. It's horrible in that some days, I'm all "Oh, let's put on this and this and this" and nothing will happen, but others (like today, and I have no idea why today and not yesterday or tomorrow or whatever), where I can feel that if I try to put anything on, it's going to hurt like a bitch.

That happens to me sometimes with the bp, too. On my cheekbones and the middle of my forehead, generally.

I suspect moisturising will help that somewhat.

Me too. But I never do because I tend to do my skin stuff at night (I'm never awake enough in the morning early enough to do anything but throw on clothes), and then I just put on the bp or whatever and go to bed. It seems like if you moisturize right before or after, you'd kinda dilute it.

What was it like on your chest/shoulders?

Most of the time, I can't even feel it. I use a light layer on the whole area and occasionally blobs on the spots if I'm willing to leave my shirt off long enough and/or ruin whatever I'm wearing (or don't think about how it'll ruin stuff) and there's no burning or anything because the skin is so much thicker.

I forget what it's called, but it's... something to do with a build-up of keratin?

Keratosis pilaris? Where it looks like chicken skin or whatever? I get everything possible that has to do with blocked glands/pores/whatever, so me too to probably whatever it was. Seriously. It's horrible.

That would kill my skin.

Yeah, it does. I can only use that on actual zits or risk pain/redness/burning, though it's really good for quick zit drying. Especially if you blob it on and put a bandaid over it so it stays wet--it's not absorbing if it dries out right away, so the longer the cream stays creamy, the better it's going to work.

It clears and reduces your pores and everything, leaving it all looking totally clear

I like this prospect. I've got a not great complexion to begin with--I look sorta mottled sometimes, LOL--so anything would be better.

IT'S BEEN FREAKING MONTHS NOW, AND ALL I'VE HAD IS A MINOR SHOWING OF OLD STUFF?

Consider yourself lucky. My whole fakeout, I'mgoneI'mback thing is getting intolerable. I can't believe that I still have any iron in my body after 7 (I looked at the pack, it's closer to) 6 weeks of this. Plus, I think I'm supporting the entire tampon industry by my lonesome.