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My skin has been all yellowish tinged of late. I just noticed it today, and I thought it was just the lighting in my bathroom, but I asked my mom in a different room where the lighting was different, and she said that it was. My eyes aren't, I'm pretty sure. Though I didn't look, because I didn't think of that. *goes to mirror* Umm, shit. They actually are, a little. Not good.

Hee, differential diagnosis for jaundice, stat. I've been taking vitamins lately and everything (but not enough to cause toxicity in anything, so that's not it) so I've got no idea. It's probably nothing, but I'm going to the doctor next monday anyway, so I'll have to ask her then. I'll probably end up having to go get all kinds of bloodwork done because if it hasn't gone away, I'd wager she'd want a hepatic workup. I doubt it's anything, though, because it's not very severe, barely a tinge.

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[xakana.livejournal.com]

Ooh. Same thing happened to my mom right before her last caesarean. I'm terrified of surgery now, so major yay to you for doing it anyway. If it's going to fix your attacks, that'll be great.

I'm back! It was actually easy. It was just like they said. I fell asleep talking, woke up kinda confused and nauseas, but feeling like I'd had a good sleep and it was all over. So if you ever need it, it's not as scary as it is on the side before it happens!

I finished my letter to older Lilly, just in case. I want her to know how much I loved her...

Okay, the fact that you wrote one almost made me cry. That is so unbelievably sweet. I'm sure that when you're old and grey and she's about to move out for college, and you decide to share it with her, she'll definitely appreciate how much love her mother has for her.

I started writing it when I was pregnant. I wanted her to know my thoughts as she was developing and as I'm entering into parenthood. I tell her why I've made the choices in parenting that I have and apologize for any fights we're going to have when she's older and tell her that no matter what, I will always love her and all I want is for her to be happy and lead the best life she can.

As for "old and gray" *sticks out tongue* I got my first white hairs when I was 19. I'll only be 44 when she's normal college age (although, since I'm going to be homeschooling, she will actually start college anywhere from age 12-16, depending on when she's ready) so that's not THAT old! ^_^

I assume you're back by now and it's all over with (because I'm so bad at replying to comments in a timely manner anymore), so I hope you start feeling really better soon!

That's okay! I can be bad at replying, too. Sometimes it can even take me months O_O

[crashcart9.livejournal.com]

I fell asleep talking, woke up kinda confused and nauseas, but feeling like I'd had a good sleep and it was all over.

Really? I had heard that you wake up really tired sometimes. I'm glad to hear that that's not always the case. I'm glad it went well.

I got my first white hairs when I was 19.

Hee. Back when I was blonder (that sounds really funny, doesn't it?) my mum always used to find them on my head when she was cutting my hair or something and make fun of me.

(although, since I'm going to be homeschooling, she will actually start college anywhere from age 12-16, depending on when she's ready)

That's really nice. I was one of those kids. I ended up going back to "normal" public school for 5th grade because my mom needed to work because we weren't making enough money just with my dad working because of my now 2 siblings and her last high-billed pregnancy, but she did supplemental stuff my entire life, and it was pretty great.

[xakana.livejournal.com]

Really? I had heard that you wake up really tired sometimes. I'm glad to hear that that's not always the case. I'm glad it went well.

Oh, I was tired, but it was a good, sleepy tired--like when you wake up and can sleep another hour or so, but have been having good sleep. And, add another weirdness to me--I dreamed.

That's really nice. I was one of those kids. I ended up going back to "normal" public school for 5th grade because my mom needed to work because we weren't making enough money just with my dad working because of my now 2 siblings and her last high-billed pregnancy, but she did supplemental stuff my entire life, and it was pretty great.

Always good to hear good homeschooling experiences! I have a network of friends who homeschool to help out so that she gets lots of socialization and field trips and things like that. Since I can't work, I don't have to worry about being taken away from it. Hubby and I just had such bad experiences with public schools that I don't want my kids having the same, ya know? Plus, it never kept up with either one of us and so we ended up bored and 'learning' stuff we already knew almost all the time. I know my kids might not be as smart as we were, but the lack of adjustment to individual needs is a major reason I'm choosing it. (that and because I don't want Christianity, which our schools are rife with, rammed down my kids' throats--which is funny, since I know people who homeschool because they want their kids taught Christianity with their other studies)

[crashcart9.livejournal.com]

And, add another weirdness to me--I dreamed.

Ooh, wow.

I have a network of friends who homeschool to help out so that she gets lots of socialization and field trips and things like that.

Also a great thing. There was a homeschooled kids group thing near us that did such things, and I remember it being pretty fun. I didn't go very often, though, because they all lived in a different part of the city. And were mostly evangelical Christian types that scared me.

Plus, it never kept up with either one of us and so we ended up bored and 'learning' stuff we already knew almost all the time.

Exactly why I wasn't public schooled at first. When I came back, the school realized this, though, and was pretty cool about me getting into whatever class I wanted to. We kept it to one or two grades above my age (though I could have gone further) just for the fitting in part of it, though, and that wasn't enough. I kinda get disappointed when I realize how much farther I'd be along if I had stayed being homeschooled. I understand that my family didn't have a choice, but I really wish I had been able to continue.

I don't want Christianity, which our schools are rife with, rammed down my kids' throats--which is funny, since I know people who homeschool because they want their kids taught Christianity with their other studies

Oh yeah. In Missouri, that's the main reason people are homeschooled. I was close enough to the city that there were people being homeschooled for educational concerns also, but the big homeschool group was pretty much all about god. Everything they did, every trip to the zoo, whatever, turned into a Jesus lesson. Twas why I didn't go to anything with them more than a couple of times. It's good you've got your network of friends who feel the same way to associate with.

[xakana.livejournal.com]

First, thank you for sharing so much positive about homeschooling. It's nice to talk to someone that it worked for! All my friends were public schooled (one was homeschooled until high school due to bullying, so her little brother was homeschooled, too, but he was always behind in everything) so they, of course, have negative images of homeschoolers. But in Attachment Parenting, it's a common thing, so since I joined an AP group, it was like joining a homescholing/unschooling group as well.

Oh yeah. In Missouri, that's the main reason people are homeschooled. I was close enough to the city that there were people being homeschooled for educational concerns also, but the big homeschool group was pretty much all about god. Everything they did, every trip to the zoo, whatever, turned into a Jesus lesson. Twas why I didn't go to anything with them more than a couple of times. It's good you've got your network of friends who feel the same way to associate with.

*shudder* I know, that was actually one of the reasons I was nervous about homeschool groups--I didn't want to end up with an even bigger dose of that than I got at school (seriously--I remember saying "amen" at the end of the Pledge of Allegiance when I was little). But thankfully, some of the people on the group are wiccan/other pagan, some are athiests, one of my friends is a mixed family of her being pagan and her husband being muslim, another friend is a Quaker (which is nothing that I expected from the name) and of course, there's the smattering of various christianities and catholicism, but everyone's respectful of other people's views. In fact, one woman tried to join who wasn't--said her religion was the only way--and she got booted. And everyone in the group is in the KC area (from KS to MO) so there are three families here in my city and a dozen or so more in easy driving distance. I found my doula through the group, too.

Heh, can you tell I love it? lol! I do feel it's a little too bad we don't have any 'alternative' families (same sex parents) but alas, most of those in an attempt to be less attacked tend to be mainstream parents. And I don't know if any in Missouri would admit that they ARE families like that. Although one of my friends on the group IS bi and just parted ways with her jerk husband, so that may change.

I'll stop babbling now, lol. I'm in a chatterbox mood!