(no subject)
Jan. 4th, 2007 11:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
commotiocordisSo. Got a hard drive for christmas. Only 60gb, which is not terrific. Bigger than my first one, but I ran out of room on the first one several times and had to compress and delete stuff and I don't want to have to do that. Found one in the newspaper that has twice as much room for only $100. Which is an amazing price. I really should buy that because I'll fill up the 60 pretty fast.
But I was fooling around on ebay and I looked my dad's account up and it turns out that he paid $90 for this one that I just got. OMG. And now I feel horrible for wanting to get the bigger one because he paid way too much for that one. I mean, he didn't, actually, as that price is pretty standard (actually pretty good) for the pocket drives and the one in the paper is a sale, but I feel like my wanting to get the bigger one is telling him that what he did wasn't good enough. And I already did the same thing with the mp3 player I got--he got me a 2gig and I wanted to trade it up to an 8 gig. I ended up not, because I had wanted to because I found out it was only $30 for the extra 6gb, but it turned out that that wasn't where he had bought it from and so it was really $100 difference between the 2gb at one place and the 8 at the other. And when I first saw the sale on the new harddrive, I thought I could just return the one he got me, but since it's ebay, there's no chance of that.
So I don't know what to do. The decision is probably made up for me already, though, as I doubt that there are any of them left in the store. Though it didn't say no rainchecks, though, so I could probably still get it. So decision not made up.
He said that he'd give me $50 for it and he'd use the one I got for Christmas and I could put up the rest of the cash and go buy the new one, but I don't know why he would use it as he's got no need for it--he's got his computer at school and then his laptop and he never has anything that he needs to take from one place to another that's bigger than his 1gb flashdrive thingie--and I can't just have him shell out what would end up being $140 for this thing if he gave me the $50 and then just let it sit around.
So I'm pretty much freaking out about this because I feel every time that I'm hurting their feelings because it seems like no matter what they get me, it's not good enough or there's always a better deal just the next day that I want to trade it in for or I just don't like it or something. I mean, with the stereo on my birthday that I pretty much just let them have back and they gave to my brother for Christmas and the mp3 player that I didn't trade but talked about doing so and now this, I feel like a horrid, ungrateful bitch.
Doesn't help that I've got a shitload of work to do; my lungs are so clogged up with crap that my pulse ox drops really drastically when I lie down, and it's already pretty low, I would estimate, when I'm not lying down (which probably means that I should go to the doctor, but by the time I get an appointment, I know it won't be doing it anymore just so that I waste the money); I've been sick for literally the last 3 weeks with only maybe one completely healthy day in between sicknesses; I really don't want to have to go to school tomorrow, but I feel like it's a bad idea to use one of my so few sick days on the third day of the semester; I'm alternating between not being able to talk at all even if I try and squeaking and rasping, both of which evoke many pain responses in my throat; we're out of acetaminophen and I've hit the ibuprofen limit for the day; I can't even do my math homework (or really I can, but it will take me easily 6 times as long) because I don't have a graphing calculator anymore and I can't bring myself to buy one yet when I've got one semester of math left; and life just generally hasn't been going my way lately.
Stuff should be a little better after next Thursday, though, as our big project for science (the one that comprises the majority of the shitload of work I've got to do) is over then.
But I was fooling around on ebay and I looked my dad's account up and it turns out that he paid $90 for this one that I just got. OMG. And now I feel horrible for wanting to get the bigger one because he paid way too much for that one. I mean, he didn't, actually, as that price is pretty standard (actually pretty good) for the pocket drives and the one in the paper is a sale, but I feel like my wanting to get the bigger one is telling him that what he did wasn't good enough. And I already did the same thing with the mp3 player I got--he got me a 2gig and I wanted to trade it up to an 8 gig. I ended up not, because I had wanted to because I found out it was only $30 for the extra 6gb, but it turned out that that wasn't where he had bought it from and so it was really $100 difference between the 2gb at one place and the 8 at the other. And when I first saw the sale on the new harddrive, I thought I could just return the one he got me, but since it's ebay, there's no chance of that.
So I don't know what to do. The decision is probably made up for me already, though, as I doubt that there are any of them left in the store. Though it didn't say no rainchecks, though, so I could probably still get it. So decision not made up.
He said that he'd give me $50 for it and he'd use the one I got for Christmas and I could put up the rest of the cash and go buy the new one, but I don't know why he would use it as he's got no need for it--he's got his computer at school and then his laptop and he never has anything that he needs to take from one place to another that's bigger than his 1gb flashdrive thingie--and I can't just have him shell out what would end up being $140 for this thing if he gave me the $50 and then just let it sit around.
So I'm pretty much freaking out about this because I feel every time that I'm hurting their feelings because it seems like no matter what they get me, it's not good enough or there's always a better deal just the next day that I want to trade it in for or I just don't like it or something. I mean, with the stereo on my birthday that I pretty much just let them have back and they gave to my brother for Christmas and the mp3 player that I didn't trade but talked about doing so and now this, I feel like a horrid, ungrateful bitch.
Doesn't help that I've got a shitload of work to do; my lungs are so clogged up with crap that my pulse ox drops really drastically when I lie down, and it's already pretty low, I would estimate, when I'm not lying down (which probably means that I should go to the doctor, but by the time I get an appointment, I know it won't be doing it anymore just so that I waste the money); I've been sick for literally the last 3 weeks with only maybe one completely healthy day in between sicknesses; I really don't want to have to go to school tomorrow, but I feel like it's a bad idea to use one of my so few sick days on the third day of the semester; I'm alternating between not being able to talk at all even if I try and squeaking and rasping, both of which evoke many pain responses in my throat; we're out of acetaminophen and I've hit the ibuprofen limit for the day; I can't even do my math homework (or really I can, but it will take me easily 6 times as long) because I don't have a graphing calculator anymore and I can't bring myself to buy one yet when I've got one semester of math left; and life just generally hasn't been going my way lately.
Stuff should be a little better after next Thursday, though, as our big project for science (the one that comprises the majority of the shitload of work I've got to do) is over then.
