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Got back from the gym at 10:30/10:40 or so tonight. And I can't get to sleep. Well, I prolly could if I tried, but since I'm not feeling tired, I haven't bothered to do so yet. This is bad, as it's the second or third day in a row I've been up past 3am with no nap, no nothing. I only really feel it in the mornings, but I'm definitely noticing that I'm more distracted than usual when trying to do work.

That's my story. Some of it's probably how I keep increasing my workout, so I'm revved up more than usual. How can you help it, though; when you're on the treadmill and you get up near your goal/stopping point, you look at how fast the calories are whipping by and you figure "Oh, only 2 more minutes and I can knock off 25 more," which turns into, erm 150. I've been very impressed lately at how well I'm progressing, fitness-wise--I still can't do the running thing (combination of the bad joints and crappy heart), but I can do power walking at high incline for longer and longer without a problem each time. This is win. The fact that--because before today, I hadn't gone since Saturday--I managed to actually gain weight over the last couple of days (like I had thought/dreaded), not win. It gets frustrating because I'm working really hard, and most of the time I get off the treadmill with nothing to show for it.

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So. . . after not really sleeping all night, I got up, got ready for school, and then decided to drive today so I could leave early and catch a nap in the afternoon. So I went back to lie down, figuring I could get an hour of nappish sleep (I was sort of going in and out like I do when I know I've got to get up soon/at a certain time) in before my alarm went off and I had to leave (around 7:45 or so--there's about an hour's difference between when I have to leave on the bus and when I'd have to leave if I drive, but since I'm always woken up anyway by the siblings/mother getting ready at the early time and gas is so damn expensive, I usually pick the former).

Well, unlike during the night, a little before the alarm went off (because last time I looked at my watch, it was 7:41) I actually fell asleep this time.

And woke up about 5 minutes ago. At 1pm.

Shit.

I thought about driving up there anyway, catching one class maybe, but by the time I get up there, there'll be maybe 20 minutes left in my last class, so it's really not worth the gasoline (which is like $2.98 now, WTF).

I am so far over the number of days that I can legitimately miss now that it's not even funny. Not to mention how I keep managing to get myself farther and farther behind simply because I'm always sick/missing for one thing or another, and just when I start to get back on track, I'm out again. And this time I wasn't even trying to miss, I mean, I wasn't planning to, had no real reason to besides the fact that I was really bloody tired.

This insomnia thing? Not good. This school missing thing? Majorly, majorly worse.