How Much You Love Her (SVU, Alex/Olivia, PG)

Didn't catch the fact that "Ghost", the SVU episode was a repeat until just now.  Oh well.  Still wrote a story about it.  This is Alex's, hoping to do a Liv one too.


How Much You Love Her
Author: Alexandria (CrashCart9@Yahoo.com)
Fandom: Law and Order: SVU
Pairing: Alex/Olivia
Spoilers!!!: Companion piece to the episode from Feb. 2005 (USA) “Ghost”
Words: 225

You don’t tell her that the man you’ve been with in Wisconsin reminds you of her.  That he’s a distraction from how much you love her.  How much you miss her.  How you close your eyes and imagine that it’s her mouth, her hands, her body next to yours.

The crushed look in her eyes when you speak of him is enough for you.  You know that she’s not over you, and you know that you’ll never be over her.  But it’s the look in your eyes and the look in hers and how you’re just barely leaning toward each other and something just clicks.  For both of you.  She understands. 

And your lips are on hers and she’s pulling your shirt off and you know that this is not what they had in mind when they assigned Liv to guard you. 

And when they tell you that you have to leave again, you know it has to happen, but it still hurts because you’re going to be alone. 

And when she shows up on your doorstep in Utah saying that she quit her job and is here now to stay, and that you’re never going to be alone again, somehow you aren’t surprised.  Because you love her.  And you know that she loves you.

SVU

http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2005/03/23/DDGHTBSLLF1.DTL&feed=rss.entertainment

Subtext, psychological and sexual, plays a pivotal role in "SVU's" fandom. More than a few viewers wonder, for example, whether the perennially single Benson shared more than just case files with "SVU's" former assistant district attorney, the so-cool-she's-chilly Alexandra Cabot (Stephanie March). By the time Cabot departed the series in a hail of gunfire last season, an online cult had flowered, devoted to the allegedly never-consummated love between the shows' two bombshell crime fighters.

"SVU's" writers know a fun thing when they see it, and played to the Alex- Olivia cult by bringing Cabot back for a night in the February episode "Ghost. " At one point, Benson is shown arriving at the former A.D.A.'s apartment clutching an overnight bag; soon, the two women are trading meaningful gazes and bemoaning the difficulty of trying to be "someone you aren't." Oh! The tension.

Baer admits tweaking fans with veiled references to Sapphic love. "We read the fan sites. We know that people are into the Alex-Olivia thing. All the codes are in there."

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"This season we had him take his shirt off," Baer says. "Wait till next season. We're going to have him take a shower."

The potential for new trauma looms. Will Stabler drop the soap and trade existential angst for sudsy homoerotica? Can fans stand the subtext? Meloni plays coy. "What can I tell ya? If it's in the script and I can defend my character dropping the soap, I'll drop it, baby."