Ooh. Same thing happened to my mom right before her last caesarean. I'm terrified of surgery now, so major yay to you for doing it anyway. If it's going to fix your attacks, that'll be great.
I'm back! It was actually easy. It was just like they said. I fell asleep talking, woke up kinda confused and nauseas, but feeling like I'd had a good sleep and it was all over. So if you ever need it, it's not as scary as it is on the side before it happens!
I finished my letter to older Lilly, just in case. I want her to know how much I loved her...
Okay, the fact that you wrote one almost made me cry. That is so unbelievably sweet. I'm sure that when you're old and grey and she's about to move out for college, and you decide to share it with her, she'll definitely appreciate how much love her mother has for her.
I started writing it when I was pregnant. I wanted her to know my thoughts as she was developing and as I'm entering into parenthood. I tell her why I've made the choices in parenting that I have and apologize for any fights we're going to have when she's older and tell her that no matter what, I will always love her and all I want is for her to be happy and lead the best life she can.
As for "old and gray" *sticks out tongue* I got my first white hairs when I was 19. I'll only be 44 when she's normal college age (although, since I'm going to be homeschooling, she will actually start college anywhere from age 12-16, depending on when she's ready) so that's not THAT old! ^_^
I assume you're back by now and it's all over with (because I'm so bad at replying to comments in a timely manner anymore), so I hope you start feeling really better soon!
That's okay! I can be bad at replying, too. Sometimes it can even take me months O_O
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I'm back! It was actually easy. It was just like they said. I fell asleep talking, woke up kinda confused and nauseas, but feeling like I'd had a good sleep and it was all over. So if you ever need it, it's not as scary as it is on the side before it happens!
I finished my letter to older Lilly, just in case. I want her to know how much I loved her...
Okay, the fact that you wrote one almost made me cry. That is so unbelievably sweet. I'm sure that when you're old and grey and she's about to move out for college, and you decide to share it with her, she'll definitely appreciate how much love her mother has for her.
I started writing it when I was pregnant. I wanted her to know my thoughts as she was developing and as I'm entering into parenthood. I tell her why I've made the choices in parenting that I have and apologize for any fights we're going to have when she's older and tell her that no matter what, I will always love her and all I want is for her to be happy and lead the best life she can.
As for "old and gray" *sticks out tongue* I got my first white hairs when I was 19. I'll only be 44 when she's normal college age (although, since I'm going to be homeschooling, she will actually start college anywhere from age 12-16, depending on when she's ready) so that's not THAT old! ^_^
I assume you're back by now and it's all over with (because I'm so bad at replying to comments in a timely manner anymore), so I hope you start feeling really better soon!
That's okay! I can be bad at replying, too. Sometimes it can even take me months O_O